The things I’ve learned
I used to think that he was perfect. I used to think that nothing I did could hurt him. I was wrong. He’s not perfect. I can hurt him.
He’s insecure like I am. He has body-image issues like I do. He worries about what I think of him, like I do.
I tend to forget that he has feelings. I say what’s on my mind with regard for how he will feel afterwards. I can’t believe he hasn’t broken up with me yet. Especially after how insensitive I was. While its true that I should be honest, I don’t have to be brutally honest. From now on I think I’ll have to work on being a bit more sensitive to his feelings. I know he’d never show it, but the things I’ve said hurt him a great deal. Usually its just out of a misunderstanding. Like when I told him I wanted him to be on top because then I could lie to myself and say that I had no choice in the matter, he thought that meant I didn’t consider it lovemaking. Of course he’d be hurt by that. But that not what I meant. It just came out wrong.
I need to start expressing myself better. I need to start expressing my love towards him, rather than just assume he knows. I need to tell him that his cock is big enough, thick enough, smells good and tastes good.
I wonder what else he’s insecure about that he hasn’t told me yet. What are guys typically insecure about? I wish I knew.