Taking it slow
I finally got to see him yesterday. Hopefully, I’ll be seeing more of him. He said that we’d be taking it slow. I imagined that taking it slow meant we wouldn’t be having sex. I was wrong. It meant 5 extra minutes of kissing. Then he kept insisting on having me sit on his face. It was awful. I was so uncomfortable the whole time. I had my period but I didn’t tell him because I didn’t think we’d be taking our clothes off at all. I was really self conscious the whole time and I couldn’t really enjoy what he was doing to me. I’m glad he’s willing to put so much effort into giving me an orgasm, but I wish he’d understand that its not so important to me.
He kept pushing me to tell him how I masturbate…but I’m just not ready. Its just too embarrassing to tell him. Its something I’ve kept hidden for almost 10 years and he expects me to just tell him. I really hate saying no to him, but I just wish he wouldn’t ask. I might tell him later today. I know he’s curious and maybe texting it to him will be easier.
The thing I enjoyed most about getting to see him was laying in his arms while he kissed me all over. I am definitely making that a regular thing.
The sex was pretty spectacular, but it’d been 3 months so everything hurt. I didn’t want to tell him, but he asked. He asks a lot of questions.