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The Gift

October 7, 2010

I woke up this morning to a text from my boyfriend wishing me a happy early birthday. He asked if I wanted something special. Yes, yes I do want something special. I want a date. I want a real date. What did he respond? He works every afternoon this week. As if that made a difference. We’ve been together almost a year and he’s never once taken me out on a date. I don’t want to keep our relationship a secret anymore. I want to go out with him. I want him to meet my friends. My friends and I are getting together Saturday night for a game night…all my friends are bringing their boyfriends, except for me. I’m sick of this. Why can’t I have a normal boyfriend? One who actually wants to spend time with me, outside of our bedrooms.
When we first got together, I used to ask him when the lust would wear off. Well, its worn off. I still love him. But the sex is no longer enough. I still love the sex, but I need more. And sadly, I think he knows it. He knows he’s not enough for me. He’s trying his best, but that’s just not enough. He once told me that I should get another boyfriend. But that’s just not acceptable. I want him, not someone else. Am I asking too much from him?

6 Comments leave one →
  1. October 7, 2010 10:44 pm

    Well, it depends on what you’re really asking. If you’re asking whether you’re asking too much of him based on what he is apparently able to give, it would seem so. Sex is amazingly important to me, but even I would need to have done something with you besides sex, regardless of circumstances, in that time period. It sounds like that is outside of what he’s got to offer. Are you asking too much of someone who is trying to provide you a positive relationship? Well….that’s something different.

    • October 8, 2010 12:41 pm

      He’s doing his best. He’s even gone so far as to give me permission to find another guy…but I want him…all of him. My boyfriend likes to sleep all morning, work all afternoon and stay up all night. This leaves little time for dating. But if he can make time for sex, why can’t he make time for a date? 😦

  2. Gabriel Raine permalink
    October 8, 2010 11:31 pm

    Because sadly, it sounds like you’re just a booty call to him. Hate to tell you that, but your symptoms all add up to him just not caring about anything more than your ass. one piece at a time.

  3. Gabriel Raine permalink
    October 17, 2010 8:35 pm

    That sucks.. you sound like a person who invests alot of their self into relationships. I hope things look up for you kid.

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