I’ll admit, I require tons of attention. I know that. I make this known. I need constant communication with those I love. But occasionally when I send my good morning text, code for I’m awake and in need of your attention, I’ll receive silence.
I can not tell you what this does to me. It isn’t so much that I run through worst case scenarios, or that I doubt someone’s love for me…it’s that I’m not receiving the attention I need. I feel really lonely for a while.
The same thing happens with short conversations.
Now, if I knew that I wouldn’t have that attention then I’d be fine. Why? Because I could prepare myself for the loneliness…and then I don’t feel so lonely. A lot of this is mental.
I feel like I’m rambling now…so I’m done talking.