College life is definitely not what I expected. For those of you keeping score, I currently have 3 Daddies…none live in Orlando. I thought I could make it work. I honestly did. But I feel like what I have now are just shells of my former relationships. Everyone is just too busy…I’m too busy. But I need them. I need each of them. I love them all so much.
College has kept me a lot busier than I expected. I thought this would be like getting my AA…but it’s way harder. I actually have to read my books. I actually have to study. These are things I’m not used to.
I feel like I don’t have time to myself. Which I’m fine with because it’s necessary. If I take time for myself then I’d have no time to spend with my Daddies…any of them. It’s just hard not having things like they used to be.
Marching band is kicking my butt! I’ve never marched before and my saxophone skills aren’t all I thought they were. Phonetics is extremely difficult. I have to learn an entire new alphabet and how to transcribe things. My physics class is by far the hardest. I spent 6 hours on homework last week for my physics class. The professor doesn’t really teach and she gives us just way too much homework. My online classes aren’t too difficult…just a lot of work that needs to get done in time I don’t have.
On top of all of this, I still need to cook, clean, do laundry and get groceries without a car…not fun. Everyone always talks about how much they want to go to college to get away from their parents…I miss my mom 😦